Then it happened...
Running away from realitySince becoming ill, I have done everything humanly possible to change, reshape, refocus, re... well, you get the point. I think I'm getting to a place of peace and acceptance, then my body throws me back in another storm. This kind of living is not only futile, it's unhealthy and exhausting. Given my lack of available energy, this is certainly not a wise way to use it!
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time, enjoying one moment at a time; accepting hardship as a pathway to peace; taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world as it is; not as I would have it; trusting that You will make all things right if I surrender to your will; so that I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with You forever in the next."
The few times I have truly accepted my situation, I have experienced blessed peace and serenity. Unfortunately, learning to fully trust God has been a crazy roller coaster ride with me fighting for control most of the way.
What I do know is that when I draw near to the Lord, letting go of my plans and fully trusting His, I experience His peace. The other option is for me to continue doing things my way, which means doing more than my body can handle and getting worse every agonizing step of the way. That is just plain goofy!!
"The thief comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance (to the full, till it overflows)"