Saturday, September 28, 2013

Who Was That?!?

Have you ever said something or behaved a certain way, then looked back on it and thought "Who was that??" It's amazing (and sometimes a bit scary) to look into the events that triggered those moments.

I have been taking new pain medication for the past month. Some of the more disturbing side effects have included: an inability to think clearly (I couldn't remember how to cut a tomato for my salad), and levels of frustration that have led me to the point of rage! My poor husband has been on the receiving end of this behaviour, and almost had to peel me off the ceiling a few days ago!

The calm after the storm

When I was able to calm myself down, I was left with this odd feeling of "what the heck just happened?" It was like I had some sort of weird out of body experience, or an awful nightmare. I was acting out of character - I should have recognized the signs.

Knowing when something is wrong

Depression and chronic pain can often go hand in hand. It's no wonder when you consider the devastation it can wreak in people's  lives. Chronic pain is sometimes referred to as an "invisible illness" because patients often look fine on the outside. Doctors, family, friends, co-workers, etc. sometimes find it hard to believe that we are in as much pain as we say we are. This type of treatment is demoralizing, which can lead to  depression and isolation. Add pain medications and their side effects into the mix, and you have a potentially dangerous situation that can lead to feelings of hopelessness and even suicide.


Read that piece of paper

I can remember watching commercials for various medications, listening to the multitude of side effects, and thinking "who in their right  mind would take that??"  Well, I am that person (it's amazing how life helps us answer questions in ways we never imagined). Yes, I do believe in trying natural remedies. No, I don't like taking pain medications. However, I do still believe that pharmaceuticals have their place. We just have to be informed and cautious consumers. Make sure that you know what you are taking, do your own research, ask your doctor questions, and ask your pharmacist questions! Don't go in with blind faith, trusting that the benefits will far outweigh any side effects. It's so easy to do when we are desperate for relief. I know I have done this, but after my recent meltdown, I am determined to be well informed! Websites like WebMD and ConsumerLab are great for doing research.

Learning to live with chronic pain

I won't even pretend to tell you how to live with chronic pain and all the weirdness it brings. I'm still learning day by day. It's not easy but it can be done. I know because I have seen people do it! I also know that while everyone's journey sounds so similar, they are also radically different. What do I mean by that? If you talk to people living with chronic pain, you will see yourself in their stories. However, everyone experiences pain differently! We each experience our world in unique ways, which means your journey will be different from mine. I just hope that by sharing my story, I can help you navigate yours, and then you can do the same for someone else. We are stronger together!

Finding strength

Brothers, I do not consider myself
yet to have taken hold of it.
But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind
and straining toward what is ahead
Philippians 3:13

I would be lost without my faith. Yet I still find myself pulling away from it at times. Why, I have no idea. Actually, I kind of do - but that's for another post. I do know that when I draw near to God, I feel at peace and have hope for the future; when I move away from Him I don't. Plain and simple.

Song's of Faith

New Life Worship - Great I Am - This is an incredibly powerful song. I hope it helps strengthen you as it did for me.

Question of the day

Do you think your personality affects your pain? Share your thoughts here, while I get to work on my next post entitled - What's Your Type, 'A'?

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