Last ResortSince I developed Complex Regional Pain Syndrome in 2008, my walk with God went from occasional visits to church, to up close and personal - FAST! The worse my pain got, the more desperate I became, the more I begged God to help me. Funny, how we so often consider God our last resort. We turn to Him in desperation when all other options have disappeared; but that's not how it's supposed to be.
We are to seek His Kingdom first!When I did, the most amazing thing happened. As I drew near to Him, I experienced complete and utter peace... for two days. Yup, that was all I could muster at the time; however, that experience changed me.
Where Hope is Found
I am finally learning to seek God before my doctors, to draw near to Him myself instead of relying on my husband to pray over me. Don't get me wrong, I have many people praying for me, for which I am incredibly grateful. In fact, we are supposed to pray for one another! However, I am finally learning to reach out to God on my own instead of thinking that I need someone else to do it for me. I am finally learning to put my hope and trust in Christ alone. This is not always easy, but the more I do, the more miracles I see.
New HopeAs I began praying before going into each doctor's visit, things began changing. My attitude was better. I was able to partner with my doctors instead of seeing them as adversaries. Doors began to open and I now have the most amazing support network in place. I've heard the statement "I can't believe you got an appointment with [specialist] so quickly!" many times. While I still live with a lot of pain, I also feel incredibly blessed!
Let Your Voice Be Heard
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